You are Irreplaceable. You MUST live on.

I was seeing how in movies they show when boys get eager to sign up for the army, to go fight in a war.
Now as a mother I have a perspective.
What a thing it is that a child does not know the value of his or her own life and is so eager to throw it away for anything at all.
I was one of those. I surely wanted to become a missionary in some dangerous place and die like that. I wanted to give my life away.
I had no idea of the price my parents paid for me to even be born, to save my life again and again; just the sheer price the heart which birthed your heart pays loving you so you get heart strength to be alive.
We think it’s about food, clothing, shelter, school fees…. My God…. It is the fibers of a parent’s body and soul that twang like a musical instrument every day every moment, energetically looking after a child through their life.
Because I never met my mother in my conscious life, I didn’t know this kind of love exists. I didn’t know that my life is their life.
And not just theirs but their parents and theirs. The love literally actually gets thicker as you go back the generations.
How I could ever be so eager to throw my life away, wish it away, I don’t know.
I always was cursing my body and having such angst about the features of my body because I felt that that was why the thugs were after me.
But when I look at Gabriel’s body, and I see the miracle of each part of him, inherited from me and my ancestors and you and your ancestors, I just want to cry, because every single human child – is one of a kind absolutely irreplaceable in time.
Only a parent understands how there is nothing in heaven or earth that is more right than that the child LIVE and LIVE forever.

Never give up your right to live in THIS body. You are even here because the whole damn universe is actively WANTING AND WILLING it.

Any time you get thoughts of feelings like you, your life are not worth much, immediately notice that that’s the evil parasite consciousness there. Say like Jesus did, “Get there behind me Satan.” A nice way to say, “F*** off.”

There is NOTHING more important than your life, your happiness, your health.

F*** everything else, thrive and thrive and thrive without limit. Grow to the heavens and then grow more.