The Rushing Force of Life

That’s what I call Mahakaal, Ed, the very force of life.

Outside of the sexual desire that IS life force, Ed, I experienced that rushing force of life, when I fed Gabriel for the first time, Ed.

We live in a world that’s a grey swamp of dead things and lukewarm things, dead before they ever lived.

But what a thing, Ed, is the hunger of a baby for LIFE, for mother’s milk, for life.

The baby, Ed, taught by no one but sheer instinct will find the nipple and crawl and roll and do what it takes from the bottom of their feet to the crown of their head, Ed, to get the milk out. And it’s not easy the first time. It has to be pumped out literally.

And the newborn Ed, has life force raging, Ed, that will get the milk out, and LIVE, Ed.

I shiver and shake and cry when I remember, Ed, what is life force, what is life, what is love.

I feel so grateful Ed, that in this dim limp fading world, God had me experience such things. Even in the hell of hells, Ed, love opens the door of heaven.

The poorest of poor, Ed, who have no money at all, those that are cast on the outside of society; even to them, Ed, God gives this huge, huge, divine experience of love for free.

In the “news”, Ed, and in books and movies, they make it like whoever has the government positions, or the money, or the crowd, or owns land; that they run the world.

But it is such an illusion and delusion, Ed.

The world is run by Mahakaal, the hunger for LIFE. Every day, Ed, while we see traffic going by, and shops open and close, people go to work and school and return; the HUNGER FOR LIFE is shattering rocks, bending time, moving the earth from underneath cities and towns.

You know that clip that’s on the Instagram reels these days, Ed? That John Carpenter movie where the guy gets those special glasses that makes him see the truth behind the illusion?

If we had those glasses, Ed, we would see how LIFE FORCE is running everything.

When I’m very tired, Ed, and I feel helpless, I remember the force of God I have felt in my body and Gabriel’s and I remember that it is our bodies that call and engage the elements of the universe.

It is our temporary blindness that we cannot see how our bodies’ hunger for love, which shows up in our baby’s hunger for life; is the greatest power. It makes everything happen.